Mother liked Jesse andĮncouraged her to date him, simply because he was a guy and the dates were enough toĮncourage her to wear makeup and fix her hair. Lori was still in her twenties, but hadĪlready made peace with death and figured out her own sexuality. (Lori was always, right – wasn’t she? She was so much younger than Ellie, but far more brave about pursuing what she needed. Anything else is self-delusion.”Įllie thought back to the last nineteen years with Jesse. Someone who won’t ever stop torturing me, unless I’m permanently out of reach. Should’ve never agreed 2 and I’m ’s put it this way: a very bad.man. “Because then I’ll know I’m dying for love.” Pounded the keys more forcefully as she typed. Something inside her started to feel sick and broken. And I want 2 die with u.”Įllie felt her face flush. How could Lori chat about it so casually? They’d talked about this for weeks. She took a deep breath, absorbing the finality of it. U won’t die a girl-gin.”Įllie’s eyes focused on a single word: “die”. That’s not old enough 2 b my Mom (but, maybe it is, Lori’s next message plopped into the window, interrupting her train of thought. I’m almost old enough to be your mother.” She hit the enter keyĪnd thought about what she was going to say next. Just thinking about it makes me want to jill off. We will suck things and lick things and poke things and “But before we die, there will be.well.you know.”
Was she right? Was dying the most intimate act two people could share? Ellie wasn’t She could make even the most outrageous thought sound believable. Could’ve made it into college, but hadn’t even applied. Dying is the most intimate thing 2 people can doĮllie paused. The click-clack of keys on her ancient laptop sounded like grinding teeth as they churned out her reply. Simply too important a conversation to cut short. She should start packing, but she had to see this through. “Do u really think ur ready 2 die? I don’t want u chickening out on me.”Įllie thought about Lori’s question.
Persons, living or dead, is co-incidence or purely intentional for the purpose of satire.Įbook first published by 01Publishing 2016.Ĭover Design Copyright © 2012 by Josh Finney All characters, names, and events portrayed areįictional or are used in an imaginary manner to entertain.